Obi-Wan was quiet as he let Ferus take that in, and he wished that the moment would pass quickly. He felt torn for a great many reasons, but he did ultimately believe he was doing the right thing. It was a difficult decision, to be sure, but it was for Ferus and for Siri more than for himself and that was what guided him, ultimately.
He glanced up when he noticed Ferus approaching him, his eyes looking first to his friend's hand reaching for him and then to his face. He tensed, just slightly, feeling all the conflict and turmoil so near the surface as he thought of all of the implications of this.
No, he thought, when Ferus asked. I am not sure.
He cleared his throat, casting away the tears in his voice with only partial success.
"I am," he said. "I am certain that it is what she would have wanted. She would have considered who could gain comfort from the crystal far more than any sentimental value of it."
And it was, ultimately, Siri's memory that counted more. Both of them would have it. And so the ownership of the crystal was less important, and so Ferus was at least as worthy an owner as Obi-Wan. She may have wanted him to have it so that she would always be with her, but he thought he would have teased her had she lived. He didn't need something of hers to keep her close to his heart. He would never forget her, and he would never lose sight of what she had meant to him.
He did not doubt that Ferus, too, would hold onto her memory and did not need the crystal. But that did not change that it was an object of comfort, and that Ferus could use that.
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He glanced up when he noticed Ferus approaching him, his eyes looking first to his friend's hand reaching for him and then to his face. He tensed, just slightly, feeling all the conflict and turmoil so near the surface as he thought of all of the implications of this.
No, he thought, when Ferus asked. I am not sure.
He cleared his throat, casting away the tears in his voice with only partial success.
"I am," he said. "I am certain that it is what she would have wanted. She would have considered who could gain comfort from the crystal far more than any sentimental value of it."
And it was, ultimately, Siri's memory that counted more. Both of them would have it. And so the ownership of the crystal was less important, and so Ferus was at least as worthy an owner as Obi-Wan. She may have wanted him to have it so that she would always be with her, but he thought he would have teased her had she lived. He didn't need something of hers to keep her close to his heart. He would never forget her, and he would never lose sight of what she had meant to him.
He did not doubt that Ferus, too, would hold onto her memory and did not need the crystal. But that did not change that it was an object of comfort, and that Ferus could use that.